Doing too much

when waking up... or actually sleeping ...
Until realizing that I am doing too much.
I am planning too many activities and want to bond with so many people
that I so crowded me out that I don't want to be with...


Me, them, the money in my bank account


I mean why does it ever matter.  People need, they will alsoalways want and plan to have even if they rob you of what you have so you just give it away so that at least you have a choice == but if your giving is really their taking and you have been tied in so many knots that it is no longer give and take --- but just take, more than I have I am robbed, and blind, and cold, and lonely thought that I was doing too much.


SEe I am always running to catch up to where I would have been to realize that I really was standing where I needed to be and so time has now looped and I am jumping rope but still getting old in spite of it all.


When greed and self centered, actually go to dinner with generosity and kindness and find out that they all fall short.


back to finding those virtues that I left lying here somewhere,
Oh how I hope that I did not lose them..