Uncertainty

I have heard some sermons at church recently that really discuss the heart of what God expects from his followers. So, now that I don't have questions about the big picture, I am still trying to fine tune my life.

I don't know what I want in a relationship. I seem to let my standards slip. I live with the day in day out sneaking suspicion that he is up to something. But, I don't want to engage in that conversation. Instead I want to rest my head in the comfort of my Lord's arms and just relax. I am troubled but I don't want to sound jealous.

Too much work there. These areas that I feel helpless in may be the very food/heart of my eating problem. I really have to work on opening my mind to feel the emotion and to stop masking something uncomfortable with something to chew on.

For a few days I have felt that I am being too informative, or disclosing too much of my personal life. But I get on a role and don't know how to shut up...

what's a woman to do?

I guess I still must focus on my strengths. Focus on me (like I explained to Jose -and him and his sister -- my children) the rest that I should not worry. What is mine, will be mine, what is not meant to be mine, will go away. I can not guarantee the results. I can invite conversation, discussion, honesty. I can do my best to rely on God, thereby testing my actions and trying to give the most encouraging approach to life.